Thursday, October 28, 2010


that sure does sound like a lot of weeks to be pregnant. these last few have been the absolute longest! funny how i'm so eager for sleep deprivation and high possibility of hormonal induced mood swings... all because i want my baby here!!!! i never completely related with other friends of mine who had to wait and wait and wait for their babies to come.... until now! and he's not even due yet!!! go figure. i think having cohen nearly 3 weeks early set me up for disappointment this time around. my dr. warned me this may happen. 37 weeks came around and i expected little man to come just like cohen... but then 37 weeks left and here i am still large and in charge with baby in tow. i was dilated to a 2+ and 60% effaced at my last visit and i have another tomorrow. even though those numbers are NO indication of hether he's coming soon or not. boo! the last few days sleep is impossible. i'd rather lose sleep to feed my baby in the middle of the night, not to pee and change positions constantly. marcel and i just last night ,as we looked at the empty pack n play set up in our room, talked about how cohen is constantly going to be peeking in once the baby is there and saying "ho him" or "shhh baby seeping". we're so excited to see cohen be a BIG brother! i have to mention the cutest thing in the world! the other night mr leao went to spend some guy time with his brothers... immediately after we dropped him off he wished he hadn't left me. he texted me frequently throughout the night and immediately after he walked in the door he started packing HIS hospital bag! he was even plotting different routes to the hospital because of all the construction on the freeway these days! every day since then he has been so eager to "induce" me :) he even gave me permission to go shopping!!!!! its the best feeling in the world to share this excitement with my husband. it makes me so happy to see him so excited!!! who knew we'd feel this way again even though we've been through it once before! maybe its even more exciting because we know what to look forward too. AHHH! i can't wait. every single day and every ache and pain i wonder to myself if this is it!!! i'm scheduled to have an elective induction on thursday.... hoping he comes sooner though. i was told i am group b strep positive. very casually at that. when i came home and did some research of my own i found out that its actually very risky to the baby during delivery! it will require atleast 4 hours of antibiotic treatment when i go into labor, which makes me think that having a planned induction may bring me extra peace knowing i will definitely have the full course of treatment before the baby comes lessening the risk to him. i was hoping for a little smoother delivery this time around but i'm not sure there is such a thing as a hiccup free delivery... or atleast its just rare. as long as he gets here healthy and stays healthy i will be one happy mama!!!! the sooner the better though :)

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

full term!

it's official! baby brother can come any day now! i have noticed the last couple of days i am having an increase in braxton hicks contractions. they are pretty strong to the point where i have to stop what i'm doing and change positions, especially while sleeping. i have also had some discomfort in my lower stomach and lower back as well as these random cramps in my calves! i've woken up screaming in pain from them a few times and marcel will quickly roll over and massage it for me... such a good guy. it's pretty exciting to feel my body preparing for this little guys arrival. just yesterday i was telling mr. leao that i've gotten so used to being pregnant that i forget that it will end and i will have a little baby! now and then i think of cohen and how this is really going to chang his little world... i'm sure it will be somewhat traumatic but i hope to make it a smooth transition with some extra effort to involve him. i know in time it will be the best thing for him. he will learn things i don't think he could learn any other way than by having a sibling to share his life with.

Cohen is such a sweetie these days. we underestimate how smart he is and he is always surprising us with how smart he is! he is talking so much. our favorite words he says lately are "fup" for football (which he is beginning to say correctly now :( "wa dish!" for watch this (this is marcels personal fav) "ya you!!" "jee-us" for Jesus and i know there's more but i can' think of them right now. i have been meaning to cit cohen down to do a little "interview" so i can get it all on video. his little voice is so precious. hopefully i will get around to that today!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

oh yeah!

i forgot to mention we finally decided on a name!

drum roll please...

Westley (West for short).

now for a middle name. i vote Connor but we'll see what Marcel decides.

35 weeks and counting...

i can't say this pregnancy has "flown by" like i've heard other girls say about their 2nd pregnancies. i have eagerly been counting the days just as i did with cohen. i'm not quite as obssessed with the babies development like i was with toe-ee but equally excited i think. my mind wonders what he'll look like... similar to cohen or completely different... light or dark... hair or no hair... we'll love him any way! i can't wait to see how cohen is going to interact with baby brother. i have a good feeling but what do i know. it could turn ugly once he gets here, but i hope not. i do think of cohen and how he has no idea that his little world is about to change entirely. i know it will be goof for him to learn to share mom and dad's love and attention but i know it is going to be an emotional ride for me AND him.
i'm surprised how strong brothers movements are. i watch my tummy just go lop-sided and see/feel little body parts poking out. its amazing. very different than with cohen, not sure why, but i think it may be that i gained less this time around. i will say this pregnancy has been harder physically. my ribs and back have been unbearable. sleep has been nearly impossible since about 30 weeks. sometimes i cry out of frustration that i am so tired and don't have many opportunities to sleep and when i have the chance to i can't because i am so uncomfrtable. there's no telling if this little guy will come early or late because cohen didn't come under the most "normal" circumstances. my dr. says that i most likely went into labor with him at 37 weeks due to an infection in my placenta. so who knows. i'm ready for him though! i feel much more prepared for him than i did with cohen which is a nice feeling. i'm not ready for the sleep deprivation but hopefully this time around nursing will work out. i'm very determined. i just pray that brother is doing ok in there and and that he will come out healthy and strong. thats my greatest desire. cohens delivery was a scary thing so i hope to experience something a little more "by the book"... i'm sure its normal but i think about that a lot and will probably worry until the day he is here. even then what mom ever stops worrying about their babies. any-way... i'm blabbing. 35 days to go! (give or take obviously) next dr. visit she will "check" me... fun.

Toe-ee turns 2!!!

Toe-ee is how Cohen says his name. we love it. so much that we find ourselves calling him that as well. so little Toe-ee celebrated his 2nd birthday August 25 2010! we flew into california on the 24th (to try and avoid having to buy a seat for him) boy, was that miserable. i didn't consider the lack of lap space with my 8 month pregnant belly when i booked the 5 hour flight. we made it though! he loved it of course and couldn't get enough of the planes. my mom and brother were there to pick us up. that was the best. i love seeing my moms sweet face and feeling her warm embrace. i've missed her too much. the next day cohen awoke to a traditional grandma sally birthday message on the mirror and tons of balloons! then we took him to the brackett airfield for his official birthday and then celebrated that night with cake and presents! my mom spoiled him... i'm thankful she did because my suitcase was too full to fit any gifts and had zero time to do shopping other than a few adorable books i had for him. this kid definitely got his "tommy" thomas the train fix. backpacks, movie, lunch box, train set... he loved it all! i had hoped to throw a little "planes and trains" party for him... i had so many cute ideas, but marcel was already really bummed he had to stay behind to work AND not be with cohen on his birthday so i didn't want to make him feel even more left out. oh! and the sweetest thing... later that week my sisters boyfriend matt invited our family over for dinner and after we ate he surprised cohen with another cake and even got him a dodgers baseball cap! i mentioned it months before that i wanted to get him one so it was so thoughtful! i was even able to squeeze in a few visits with dear friends! we spent some time with my bff nickle-pickle and little "juicy" (lucy) as cohen calls her and went to the beach with payce and gwen! we had a great trip but after 2 weeks i was really eager to get home and get situated for baby to come! did i mention less than 35 days until my due date?? ca-razy! more to come on that in my next post!

grrr... i can't upload any pics. so annoying.... i guess my next post will be all pictures!