Tuesday, November 16, 2010
i'm finally getting around to documenting West's arrival. in the end i decided to go through with the induction! the night before i called the hospital and they told me i should get a call between 5 and 10 am letting me know if i was scheduled that day. 10 am rolled around and i still hadn't heard from them so i called and they said they didn't have a room for me but they were pretty sure i'd still be able to get induced that day. in he meantime marcel had snuck away and came home with a cool little video camera so we could document the day! about an hour later i get a call saying to get there as quickly as i could! we hurried and gathered our things and excitedly headed for the hospital. my mom was here so she took Cohen to my aunt and uncles house and then met us there. it was kind of strange to be heading to the hospital planning to leave with a baby! on the way there marcel reminded me we hadn't picked a middle name yet! we threw around a couple names and then marcel suggested Cole! i loved it immediately and it wasn't even one of our options this whole time! we got settled in the delivery room and around 1230 pm they began the pitocin! it took some time for the contractions to begin and when they did they were completely manageable which i didn't expect. from what i heard being induced brought on contractions hard and fast from the very beginning but these were more mild than when i had cohen! marcels cousin Paola came shortly after to take pictures and document the whole experience for us! i was a 3 when we came in and after an hour or two i hadn't progressed much. my dr. said my labor would most likely be quicker since it was my 2nd and i was being induced... or so she thought! after a few hours i finally got to a 4... at this point i was worried i wouldn't progress and end up needing a c- section. they bumped up the pitocin and the nurse offered the epidural... after a little longer i decided i should just get it even though my contractions were still completely manageable. i told her i wanted it and then she said the anesthesiologist was in surgery and wouldn't make it for another hour... no biggie. until a few mintues later when i got really uncomfortable. by the time he came my contractions didn't seem so bad but i didn't want to send him away and then end up regretting it. OH MY! i do not remember it being so bad getting the epidural with cohen! it was the same anesthesiologist too. i think my contractions were so much harder with cohen that i barely noticed the epidual but this time since i wasn't really in pain yet it was so weird!!!! all the poping and cold sensations down my back! afterward i was feeling really good though. at this point we just hung out and chatted they checked me frequently and i was progressing very slowly. they broke my water which didn't really seem to speed things up. it was getting dark by the time they told me i was a 6 where i stayed for quite a while. over time west began to show signs of distress. i was also feeling pain in my cervix really bad even with the epidural. they turned off the pitocin and then checked me a little bit later and i had diated to 9 all on my own! then they began the pitocin again because my contractions had died down. we were beginning to think west wanted a november 5th birthday!! finally a little after 11pm it was time to push! i got a little scared at this point. Marcel was so encouraging and reminded me that everything would be okay. we ended us saying a quick prayer together and then i started pushing! they had turned off the epidural at this point in hopes that it would wear off a bit because i could not feel a thing! every time they had me push i was getting so discouraged because i had no idea if i was doing it right! my dr. kept telling me i was doing great but for some reason after every set of pushes i would nearly cry and say "i can't do this!" they brought out the mirror which seriously changed everything. with every push i could see that little head and all that dark hair more and more. it really helped me get through it... what felt like hours of pushing ended up being 23 minutes!!!! i can't believe it went that fast! when they laid him in my arms the tears just came flowing. i was beyond happy to have him here and healthy. that was the greatest feeling in the world. with cohen he was rushed off so quickly i barely had that time to bond with him immediately. with west i was able to hold him and nurse him and it was amazing. west was born with a lot of swelling in his head because he came out with his face kind of diagonal which is what was causing me so much cervical pain and which they warned us could lead to jaundice because his body would not be able to flush it out fast enough. we had hoped to leave after the one day in the hospital but then that saturday west needed to be on the uv lights so we stuck around that 2nd day. when cohen came to the hospital for the first time he walked in and looked at me and looked around trying to figure out what was going on. he sat there for awhile not saying anything and you could see his little brain was processing the changes that had occured. when we asked him where baby brother was instead of pointing to my belly he pointed to the baby!!!! i had no idea he actually knew what was going on! little smarty. at one point they took the baby out and when cohen came he was looking everywhere for him and saying "baby doe?" with his hands out asking a question. he even looked behind my pillow! when they brought west back cohen just lit up with excitement! thankfully that happiness is still there. he loves his brother and is so sweet to him. he even shared rawr with him today!!! brother is always smothered with lots of little "toe-ee tisses" :) my mom was here for the first week and i'm so thankful she was. marcel had to go back to work and i have been extremely hormonal and emotional. i am so up and down and feel kind of down a lot of times. it seems to be hitting me harder this time. i'm obviously really tired which is to be expected. west is actually a really good sleeper though. i can get 2-3 hour stretches from him and an occasional 4!! that never happened with cohen for atleast 2 months! but still, having cohen limits the amount of day time sleep i get so the nights are really hard to get through! west loved to nurse from the very beginning but he was sucking very shallowly and i ended up getting scabs. i met with a lactation consultant who pointed out that he sucks in his top lip and i would need to work on that with him. i attempted to but it was too difficult and it was getting very frustrating and painful!!! since then i have been exclusively pumping. it's time consuming but worth it because i know west is getting the benefit of the breastmilk. my goal is to keep it up for atleast 3 months so we will see how that goes! anyway... that's what's going on in our lives up to this point! we'll keep you posted. thanks for all of your sweet comments! we love you all!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
i got a phone call tonight saying i would get another phone call after 5 am letting me know whether or not the have room for me to be induced... i got pretty emotional today just thinking of how life will change yet again. i will have one more little person dependent on me. i prayed that i would be able to balance it all and still give my husband the love and attention that he most definitely deserves. i get caught up with the cooking cleaning and taking care of kids stuff that sometimes i forget how to wind down and give me hubs a little love. i prayed so whole heartedly that i would be able to do that for him. i'm not good at "letting things go" especially a clean house but its something i feel is going to have to be put a little lower on the priority list once brother comes. the people in my life need much more attention than my home at the moment.
i'm getting a little nervous at the thought of everything that will happen tomorrow (or that will hopefully happen tomorrow) i should say. thankfully my mom is on her way here now and i'll have my husband by my side. that comforts me so much just thinking about. i can't wait to hold and kiss my sweet son so fresh from Heavenly Fathers presence. I am so thankful to be a mom, not once, but almost twice! my family is my joy. i'm not sure i'll be as good at blogging after brother comes but it has definitely helped get through these long days of waiting!!!! i'll try to keep you posted!
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
i'm going to attempt a quick blog update while cohen is distracted by cartoons. we'll see how long that lasts!
the other night i started feeling this terrible burning/stinging pain under my ribs. the skin is very tender to the touch there as well. every time baby would move or kick in that area it made me jump in pain. in the middle of the night i woke up from the pain and was crying in excruciating pain. i didn't know what to do so i called the dr. and she told me to go to labor /delivery to get evaluated. i hesitated and thought i'd try to sleep it off. the next morning i felt i should go in since it as a bit more convenient than the middle of the night. we were there 3 hours while they ran blood tests and monitored me and the baby. they thought it may be preeclampsia because of where the pain was but it turned out it wasn't. at the end of it all they told me it most likely is stretching, which isn't normally that painful. i knew it wasn't normal myself but it made sense that it was stretching since i'm normally pretty narrow in my abdomen so i figured being this big would cause quite a bit of stretching. i haven't had as painful an episode as that since then but it is still very tender. the nurses encouraged me to go through with the induction on thursday which was comforting because i have been going back and forth with it. i've been weighing the pros and cons. come to think of it i feel like i should be more prayerful about it. i don't want to feel like i am taking control away from Heavenly Father and his timing. those are not my intentions. i don't want to force baby here if he is not ready either. i want to do it for a few reasons... my mom can only take a few days off from work to be here for the delivery and she missed cohen's delivery last time. it was really hard for her to miss it especially since it wasn't her fault. she even told me recently that she has never been present for a real delivery other than her own kids and i want her to be apart of this special day. that's my biggest motivation. also being group b strep positive and being an hour away from the hospital and most recently this rib pain. all those combined with the assurance from my dr baby is ready are what make me feel like its ok. i will be missing out on the "oh my gosh! i'm in labor, panic/excitement feeling but i'd rather be more prepared this time with cohen and all my other needs for being prepared. i'm not sure how it will all work out or if i'll end up going through with it but i wont if i don't have that peace.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
that sure does sound like a lot of weeks to be pregnant. these last few have been the absolute longest! funny how i'm so eager for sleep deprivation and high possibility of hormonal induced mood swings... all because i want my baby here!!!! i never completely related with other friends of mine who had to wait and wait and wait for their babies to come.... until now! and he's not even due yet!!! go figure. i think having cohen nearly 3 weeks early set me up for disappointment this time around. my dr. warned me this may happen. 37 weeks came around and i expected little man to come just like cohen... but then 37 weeks left and here i am still large and in charge with baby in tow. i was dilated to a 2+ and 60% effaced at my last visit and i have another tomorrow. even though those numbers are NO indication of hether he's coming soon or not. boo! the last few days sleep is impossible. i'd rather lose sleep to feed my baby in the middle of the night, not to pee and change positions constantly. marcel and i just last night ,as we looked at the empty pack n play set up in our room, talked about how cohen is constantly going to be peeking in once the baby is there and saying "ho him" or "shhh baby seeping". we're so excited to see cohen be a BIG brother! i have to mention the cutest thing in the world! the other night mr leao went to spend some guy time with his brothers... immediately after we dropped him off he wished he hadn't left me. he texted me frequently throughout the night and immediately after he walked in the door he started packing HIS hospital bag! he was even plotting different routes to the hospital because of all the construction on the freeway these days! every day since then he has been so eager to "induce" me :) he even gave me permission to go shopping!!!!! its the best feeling in the world to share this excitement with my husband. it makes me so happy to see him so excited!!! who knew we'd feel this way again even though we've been through it once before! maybe its even more exciting because we know what to look forward too. AHHH! i can't wait. every single day and every ache and pain i wonder to myself if this is it!!! i'm scheduled to have an elective induction on thursday.... hoping he comes sooner though. i was told i am group b strep positive. very casually at that. when i came home and did some research of my own i found out that its actually very risky to the baby during delivery! it will require atleast 4 hours of antibiotic treatment when i go into labor, which makes me think that having a planned induction may bring me extra peace knowing i will definitely have the full course of treatment before the baby comes lessening the risk to him. i was hoping for a little smoother delivery this time around but i'm not sure there is such a thing as a hiccup free delivery... or atleast its just rare. as long as he gets here healthy and stays healthy i will be one happy mama!!!! the sooner the better though :)
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
it's official! baby brother can come any day now! i have noticed the last couple of days i am having an increase in braxton hicks contractions. they are pretty strong to the point where i have to stop what i'm doing and change positions, especially while sleeping. i have also had some discomfort in my lower stomach and lower back as well as these random cramps in my calves! i've woken up screaming in pain from them a few times and marcel will quickly roll over and massage it for me... such a good guy. it's pretty exciting to feel my body preparing for this little guys arrival. just yesterday i was telling mr. leao that i've gotten so used to being pregnant that i forget that it will end and i will have a little baby! now and then i think of cohen and how this is really going to chang his little world... i'm sure it will be somewhat traumatic but i hope to make it a smooth transition with some extra effort to involve him. i know in time it will be the best thing for him. he will learn things i don't think he could learn any other way than by having a sibling to share his life with.
Cohen is such a sweetie these days. we underestimate how smart he is and he is always surprising us with how smart he is! he is talking so much. our favorite words he says lately are "fup" for football (which he is beginning to say correctly now :( "wa dish!" for watch this (this is marcels personal fav) "ya you!!" "jee-us" for Jesus and i know there's more but i can' think of them right now. i have been meaning to cit cohen down to do a little "interview" so i can get it all on video. his little voice is so precious. hopefully i will get around to that today!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
i can't say this pregnancy has "flown by" like i've heard other girls say about their 2nd pregnancies. i have eagerly been counting the days just as i did with cohen. i'm not quite as obssessed with the babies development like i was with toe-ee but equally excited i think. my mind wonders what he'll look like... similar to cohen or completely different... light or dark... hair or no hair... we'll love him any way! i can't wait to see how cohen is going to interact with baby brother. i have a good feeling but what do i know. it could turn ugly once he gets here, but i hope not. i do think of cohen and how he has no idea that his little world is about to change entirely. i know it will be goof for him to learn to share mom and dad's love and attention but i know it is going to be an emotional ride for me AND him.
i'm surprised how strong brothers movements are. i watch my tummy just go lop-sided and see/feel little body parts poking out. its amazing. very different than with cohen, not sure why, but i think it may be that i gained less this time around. i will say this pregnancy has been harder physically. my ribs and back have been unbearable. sleep has been nearly impossible since about 30 weeks. sometimes i cry out of frustration that i am so tired and don't have many opportunities to sleep and when i have the chance to i can't because i am so uncomfrtable. there's no telling if this little guy will come early or late because cohen didn't come under the most "normal" circumstances. my dr. says that i most likely went into labor with him at 37 weeks due to an infection in my placenta. so who knows. i'm ready for him though! i feel much more prepared for him than i did with cohen which is a nice feeling. i'm not ready for the sleep deprivation but hopefully this time around nursing will work out. i'm very determined. i just pray that brother is doing ok in there and and that he will come out healthy and strong. thats my greatest desire. cohens delivery was a scary thing so i hope to experience something a little more "by the book"... i'm sure its normal but i think about that a lot and will probably worry until the day he is here. even then what mom ever stops worrying about their babies. any-way... i'm blabbing. 35 days to go! (give or take obviously) next dr. visit she will "check" me... fun.
Toe-ee is how Cohen says his name. we love it. so much that we find ourselves calling him that as well. so little Toe-ee celebrated his 2nd birthday August 25 2010! we flew into california on the 24th (to try and avoid having to buy a seat for him) boy, was that miserable. i didn't consider the lack of lap space with my 8 month pregnant belly when i booked the 5 hour flight. we made it though! he loved it of course and couldn't get enough of the planes. my mom and brother were there to pick us up. that was the best. i love seeing my moms sweet face and feeling her warm embrace. i've missed her too much. the next day cohen awoke to a traditional grandma sally birthday message on the mirror and tons of balloons! then we took him to the brackett airfield for his official birthday and then celebrated that night with cake and presents! my mom spoiled him... i'm thankful she did because my suitcase was too full to fit any gifts and had zero time to do shopping other than a few adorable books i had for him. this kid definitely got his "tommy" thomas the train fix. backpacks, movie, lunch box, train set... he loved it all! i had hoped to throw a little "planes and trains" party for him... i had so many cute ideas, but marcel was already really bummed he had to stay behind to work AND not be with cohen on his birthday so i didn't want to make him feel even more left out. oh! and the sweetest thing... later that week my sisters boyfriend matt invited our family over for dinner and after we ate he surprised cohen with another cake and even got him a dodgers baseball cap! i mentioned it months before that i wanted to get him one so it was so thoughtful! i was even able to squeeze in a few visits with dear friends! we spent some time with my bff nickle-pickle and little "juicy" (lucy) as cohen calls her and went to the beach with payce and gwen! we had a great trip but after 2 weeks i was really eager to get home and get situated for baby to come! did i mention less than 35 days until my due date?? ca-razy! more to come on that in my next post!
grrr... i can't upload any pics. so annoying.... i guess my next post will be all pictures!
Monday, August 16, 2010
i am a lucky lucky girl.
my sweet hubs, on a daily basis, reminds me he only has eyes for me.
any girl who has ever been pregnant... or any girl for that matter, has days when sexy is definitely not a word you would use to describe yourself.
i have plenty of those days lately.
i can't even count how many times mr.leao reminds me that he thinks i am beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, hot... and the list goes on.
and even if the words don't come out of his mouth, his eyes say it ALL.
i feel it. i can't help but smile when he gives me that look.
just today for that matter he kept saying how beautiful i looked.
finally i just said, "i don't feel beautiful" and in true prefect husband fashion, he says " even if you don't lose a pound after having this baby i will still think you are so beautiful because i am so in love with you...
i have tears in my eyes as i type this.
i knew when i married marcel he would keep me laughing and even when we were dating he always complimented me and was so loving and affectionate. i'm just so grateful that over the last, almost 4 years, of us being together he still makes me feel so special.
Friday, August 13, 2010
we are having THE hardest time coming up with a name for our upcoming addition. I'm stuck on the name Hudson but the fact that Marcel doesn't love it takes away my excitement over it... so for now that name will remain on the list of maybe's along with...
Marcels Fav's are...
all of the others.
i do like Wesley and it seems like it'd be a good fit but i'm still not sure.
i'm thinking this time around we may end up waiting to meet baby brother before we name him and that's ok too.
Marcels Fav's are...
all of the others.
i do like Wesley and it seems like it'd be a good fit but i'm still not sure.
i'm thinking this time around we may end up waiting to meet baby brother before we name him and that's ok too.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
...by spotted photography.
my cousin by marriage, Paola, has been here visiting for a few days so today we decided to wander around our apartment complex and see if we could get some nice maternity photos! she has a successful photography business called Spotted Photography so i was really excited she was willing to do this for me! i never had any professional photos done with cohen so i was thrilled to have these done for baby Hudson??... yes, thats the name that is sticking with me. i just need to convince marcel :) anyway, enjoy!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
i am dying for a change. i have been attempting to let my hair grow this pregnancy, but i'm over it! maybe it's because i am gaining weight but i feel like long hair is not flattering on me. i have a fairly round face so i feel like anything around the shoulder length just emphasizes the "roundness". i am so torn about whether or not i stick it out and let it keep growing in hopes that as it gets longer it will be more flattering (and maybe this is just the awkward length you always hear people talk about) or just chop it. To add to my indecisiveness, i need to decide if i should go dark again or stay blonde. i get mixed feelings from other people about it. my aunt who does my hair says go dark.. that it is more "stunning" and makes my features pop and marcel says either color but he LOVES when i have a shorter a-line cut. hmmmm. i found pictures of the haircuts and color i'm considering... atleast i have 5 weeks before i can do anything about it anyway....what to do?!!!!
these would be a cute addition for the baby...
especially since i fully intend on dying my hair dark again
when we get home from the summer!